The Order Of The Ancient Way

"The Closet Heterosexual"

Dear Sir or Madam,

I so enjoy your program and I saw these two normal women on the news this morning having to go to the high court so what chance have people like me got. Could you please help me? I am a closet heterosexual. There I've said it. I need help and advice, as I really would like to 'come out' but am so embarrassed and afraid. I always knew that I was different since I was a very young boy. I started to wear heavy boots and a hard hat whenever I could and I lusted after girls; not only girls in my class in school, but I even a fell in love with one or most of my female teachers.

I am such a bad case, that even a glimpse of a woman's leg, or her stocking tops will set me off. If she bends down and show's her cleavage, the flag goes up straight away.

I just can't stop myself when a woman is around. I go all tongue-tied and I get very aroused when close to a woman. I get very horny even when I just fantasies about them, which is nearly all the time.

Other men see me watching women, my eyes sticking out like organ stops and despise me. They call me a pervert and other dirty names. Like: fanny fancier, minge maniac and worse. My biggest fear is of normal men, who hang around toilets in gangs 'Hetro bashing'.

I simply can't help the way I am and feel. I was just born this way. I didn't become a Heterosexual through choice.

Can you tell me about any help groups that I might be able to join, sharing experience with others who suffer the same problems? Even a 'help yourself group' will do me fine. I am desperate to fit in and become a part of the common heard, but I just don't fancy men. Not even in the slightest. If I am with a group of men and a woman walks past, I'm off again. Perhaps there is some other treatment for it that I don't know about? Breast transplants, hormone treatment or something like that.

I've been to psychologists and counselors, but they don't seem to be able to really help me. Some are even disgusted by my blatant heterosexuality. Even the macho way I walk and dress disturbs them.

Perhaps one day men like me will be understood and might even get equal rights to normal men. I would love to be able to walk down the street with a woman on my arm and be accepted for who and what I am.

I don't really feel that I am a pervert, but when nearly everyone seems to think that Heterosexuality is unnatural, I have little option but to bend to the opinion of the majority. It seems that if you're a heterosexual, then normal men feel threatened by you. If the way I am is unnatural what can I do? Nearly everyone seems to be so terribly Heterophobic these days.

The terrible truth about me is that I have never had sex with a man and all I want is a woman. I even hate makeup, dresses and high heels. Please can you help me?

I know that men like me are in the minority and our numbers thankfully are decreasing. I say thankfully, because I wouldn't wish heterosexuality on anyone. Being an outcast, living almost in secret is a desperate, fearful thing and then there's the shame. Only for the recent decrease in heterosexuality, I fear that one day it might even become compulsory. It is so hard on my family and I am grateful that I have been able to keep it hidden from my mother. She would just die of shame if she knew and poor old dad it would destroy him.

I have a Hetero girl friend now and we are so afraid of being suspected; never mind being caught actually having sex together. It would be a desperate thing if she got pregnant in this unnatural manner. There must be something that can be done. I have suggested to her that we get pregnant in the normal and natural way which is of course by insemination. I wouldn't even have to be there would I. Please help me and my heterosexual girlfriend and please don't despise us. I hope that others can be helped as well as us in some way. Perhaps even just by knowing that they are not the only ones out there will be a comfort to them.

Yours in desperation,

Girl fancier.

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